alone. useless. lonely. clueless. stuck.

its been quite long since ive felt this way. actually its been quite long since ive actually felt. feel.

i cried from the aye all the way to parkview. and cried even more by the pool.
and the ironic thing is, i think i deserved it.
i had no one to call. i didnt know who to call. i still dont know who to call. and i dont think i have anyone to call. anyone to meet. and although i shouldnt be thinking about all the times ive been there for people who've called me crying and all.. i start to wonder, wheres everyone?

i hate feeling so down.
and its not even pms i swear.

i need to start to realise that the world doesnt revolve around me.
i am already 20.
it is not my birth right to be so spoilt.
everything cannot be going my way, on the highway.
20 year old girls are not cry babies.